Did you know…

I’m a recent UX/UI Designer graduate. Yes, who would have thought a person with an extensive background in French Pastry and American Baked goods would be stepping into this field. I know for sure this fluff didn’t.

I’ve always wanted to be a designer of some sort just couldn’t figure out in what. I designed quite a lot of pastries and plates back in the day in fine dining and specialty cakes. But it wasn’t enough. There’s something different in the way a UX/UI designer can interact with a user and help solve their problems. It fills a void that instant satisfaction can no fill. If you eat a piece of cake that looks amaing and delicious, its gone in seconds depending on how fast you hover it. But an app or site is a product that you can keep coming back to, use it as part of your daily routine, or even go as far as to help give updates to help improve it.

I love to solve puzzles and problems…in the words of Tinker Bell from the Tinkerbell movie from 2008…”Yes. Because I’m a Tinker. It’s who I am and tinkers fix things” Yep that pretty much describes me perfectly. If you know me, you would know I’m a lover of movies, books, memes, and just good old fashion comedy. I live in my own fantasy world that is the gateway to the tasks in front of me. With that being said, UX has a way of not only solving the issues at hand but taking the extra step to add some quality satisfaction to the user experience and interaction with the app or desktop at hand.

When I went to Springboard, I was asked how could I answer the question of what is UX vs UI. The best way to explain is that UX is the blueprint to the product while UI is the color, the details, the reason to have a competitive product not just in ease of use but in appearances.

Right now its the grueling job search. You know you have the skills, the drive, but because you’re new…denied. Its soul crushing after 50…80…95 rejections and major ghosting action. Its tougher than swiping right via Tinder or any other dating app. My mental health was and is constantly being tested and I basically have to either cry, ramble, scream, go on walks, or run harder to keep myself in check. Legit thanks to my hubby, friends, and family for dealing with that me…

However, no matter how grueling and upsetting this experience is, I’m taking it all in. Every fucking bit of it.

Does it sound like I’m giving up? It probably does, but I’m not.

Do I need to take a day off from the job search? Yep.

Is this part of the damn process? Unfortunately yes and i’m all here for it.

Fuck.

Lately once I’ve either haven’t heard anything or get a rejection, My head goes straight to imposter syndrome and questioning whether I’m even capable of doing this…am I good enough? On good days I’m shouting “fuck yes I can do this. This is my jam!” on bad days…the circus comes to Fluff town to destroy my confidence…this emotional roller coaster continues to plow through. I think the best days is when I don’t think about it and just focus on the tasks at hand. Whatever it may be. I just have to do something to get myself out of my head.

Since today I’m having a pretty good day…I restate my first statement. Yes I recently graduated but I AM A UX/UI DESIGNER.

As a fluff reader, have you ever had this issue? Anyone have war stories in the job search?

Let me know in the comments!

Other than that, Hope all you fluffs are doing well and I’ll fluff you more later!